51 Days to go (Thursday)

Weight 121.0 (+1.5)

AM cardio:
10 min run w/pooch (easy)
13 minutes of treadmill intervals hard

PM cardio:
a few minutes if I can

Weights: back/bi's

Feeling: okay...little sad & myphed about personal problems but nothing fitness related.

Last night shoulders was pretty good workout....lifted w/friend, Mike. He got on my nerves and I was in a pissy mood, but did get a good lift in. Ran some late last night to try to handle frustration of day...it did help.

This week's plan:
Thur: back/bi's
Fri: rest
Sat: legs & tri's
Sun: Chest & light Shoulders

Plan:

4:45 1 cup SF Jello
6:15 low carb protein shake
8:30 1 whole eggs & 4 whites & 2 oz tilipia & green peppers/cucumbers
11:30 5 oz chicken breast & broc/green/caulif/peppers
2:30 5 oz pork chop & spinach w/dressing/Udo
5:30 low carb protein shake
8:30 Carbup (bananna, 1 cup oatmeal, sweet potato & peanut butter)

Big sigh....

The James/divorce issue has been flaring. He called me anorexic & old looking (among many other bad things). I know he says these things out of anger & jealousy but I can't help but feel bad.

Then Seth really let me have it last night...instead of being supportive, he was very critical of me and the way I'm handling this divorce situation. He knows it all...jeesh. Might re-evaluate this whole situation. Just not comfortable with the way he talked to me and the things he said...it's sad, because I do like him a lot. Just can't overlook important qualities like this though. We'll see.....

Good friend's dog is very ill as well. I feel terrible...hopefully the little guy will pull through.

So anyways, this is a sunshiny message. Everything is going to be alright...guess I just need another day of introspection to try to figure things out.

Some days feel like a rollercoaster....and I'm feeling a little fat today too.... Okay, going to work to overcome all of this.